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Being aware that I'm the toxic one makes me think that I should just let go of the person. It's quite a difficult choice. I feel so guilty, yet can't help my worries. I want to improve and become more calm in my relationship. But even with that thought, it's so hard to start. I end up damaging my partner with my assumptions. I don't know what to say. I feel like my apologies are becoming worthless because I'm unable to solve my issue. Is this a phase? Will things get better? How do you start dealing with something so heavy?